Would you even know me or I you? Would I find a tape of you someday and hear your voice speaking to me? You never wanted me but I have always wanted you. What have I done in my life to have you walk away and never know me?
If I could change, could go back, could never exist would it make one minute of your life different?
I may never know a thing about you but that does not change who I am and how much I really want to know you.
But it is okay, I have learned how to cope with being the person that people do not acknowledge. The one the proper people are ashamed of and so I think maybe, just maybe I am strong enough to know that you are too ashamed of me to tell the world you are my father.
I forgive you Dad but I do not know if I could ever look you in the eyes.