The human condition

Before the first computer, armies clashed upon this earth;

before the first man escaped earth to fly, countries fell into bitter civil war;

before the dawn of industrialization, the dark ages of bitterness and oppression;

before the first sword was fashioned, one brother’s jealousy drove him to murder;

history stands as witness, I am not convinced of humanity’s innate goodness

only it’s divine ability to recognize it.

Trish 2011

For my love this day

To kiss and part and kiss again
The beauty cast before me now
Her light shines and love abounds
The gentle look an angel's crown
My heart reaches deep to hold the sight
Can this one moment pause in all of time?
I wish to keep it ever close.
That I might sup from this flowing vine.


 Trish 2011

Thanks

To be the one that cares for me
the steady beat that moves my heart
Can I 'er to pay the debt
of love that showers down on me
I am the one that owes so much
to many that partake of me
I am the one that utters thanks
for life, for love, for all I see

- Trish 2011

The gift

Should I but waste my time away

this gift that bestows so much

to distain what's been given me

as worthless spot not infamy

I could but make the bold retort

and stand to shout with anger snort

Or speak of deeds long past made good

Can I the bearer of this gift

bestow like said to those to come

As past and near my fellows have fought

to give said gift to us in part

Upon the fields the blood was wrought

And spilled to make for others not

a gift so weak or worthless bought

or squander now squabbles galore

This thing that past to us is rare

throughout the history known or sworn

Its seldom known so clearly as

the gift we have and much we own

this gift I speak you ask of me?

So listen to know as I implore

It is our freedom so don’t ignore.

- Trish 2011

Longer

If I but stay a moment longer
to touch your skin and hold you closer
could I the one then dare to part?
or call an end to heavens gift?
I dare not speak or rise to go
You lay so softly I sigh within
Your lips apart in endless kiss
I bend to reach to touch the sweet caress
And feel your love for once more I'm blessed.

- Trish 2011

Touch of friends

Colors to and fro they live
the lives of many threads of
love and smiles the ones
that touch my life in
ways that cannot speak
in words that cannot utter
how they touch the very
heart of me I am
the bird that sits upon
the hands of ones that care
for me and yet I will not suffer
loss the way they hold me
cannot count the cost of love
they fill me up with smiles
my friends they
are the  BEST!!


- Trish 2011

Unbound Happiness

Happiness cannot describe me now
the giggle builds from deep within
My thoughts they dance, dip and bow
the laughs explode to fill the bin.

I am the funny, giddy one
my toes they wiggle and find fun
I cannot think It be undone
I drink the laughter by the ton.

Can I but ever loose the time
Can sadness come and steal away
I want to ever live this rhyme
and dance with angels every day.


- Trish 2011

The waiting

Time it is no friend to me
each second slowly ticking by
My love not here, my tears down fly
I watch the clock for dawn to be

Can I my heart so full of fear
Stand the wait through the longing still
I want for just a magic pill
That returns to me my love, my dear

Can I mere mortal wish
My time on earth away
I tremble, sigh, sit and sway
And long to sleep away in bliss

For soon my love, my heart, shall be
In my true arms and kisses part
Shall never be truly lost in art
I will but wait and long for thee.


- Trish 2011

Alone the night comes

Sounds dribble in from under door
first muffled low and closing grow
will this one passing be for me?
I turn but nothing knocks a rap
I crane my neck and arch my back
but no new bellows come my way
alone the lights close round in fray
the colors slowing blend to black.
The covers now I pull up tight
as if to ward off danger fright
the room grows large the closet door
was that a creak a moan for sure
the night leaks in to steal the day
the clock just hums the time away
my love is gone my heart is sore
my tears flow down as to the floor
where is my warm and caring hug
my love is gone and I alone
to watch the walls as time just drones
The air grows thick and dust doth hang
the sound was laughter or crying pang?
I want to be with someone now
My heart is empty I sit and sway.


- Trish 2011

Worthless

The clock ticks slowly off its time
the darkness folds in upon me
I feel so less than perfect be
But broken verse and useless rhyme

How can I hold such value now
I am have no good or worth to be
I shouldst but go and let life move on
What right should I to exist at all?

Oh for the morn when I saw see
I have some value left to me
I want not to live under this decree
That I should suffer less
The night and all its doubting bring
but alas I am not the best.


- Trish 2011

Lost

I just want to leave this world
to stop, to break, to end
would I a story ever be told
can it be so quick to go
would I laugh right to the last
or cry because I once was loved
but was lost before grown old.


- Trish 2011

If

If I could touch the the tall blue sky
I'd hold the world in my hand
if I could reach beyond the clouds
I'd pull the pain from your heart
if I could feel the ocean deep
I'd wash away the tear stained eyes.
if I could run beyond the night
I'd shine with love for you so bright
if I could see for miles around
I'd see all the answers for tomorrow
If I could lift the mountains tall
I'd hold you ever from the fall.

- Trish 2011

Love

Loving you has made me
the girl I am today
you've stayed through pain
and happiness
to make my hope remain.
I want to hold you ever
to feel the touch within
I cannot think of ever
being without my friend.

- Trish 2011

The view

I see you watching me
eyes that scan my flesh
you want but wont come near
quietly sitting at your rest
can I but stay and let you see
are you the one that watches me
or I at vantage better set
to gaze back with content.

- Trish 2011

I dance

I dearly love to dance and sing
my feet above the dale
To watch with wonder at my flight
My love abounds and sails
I turn and sway
to sounds so sweet
I want for nothing but moving feet
The wind that sails, doth not touch me
I am above the bended knee
That only sound that breaks my trance
Is silence quick and still
When music fades the pixies flee
and long for more romance.


- Trish 2011

Ashamed

I am the road less travelled by
the one with grass grown high.
I tend to see the best in you
where you see none in mine.
Am I the one to shun away
to keep behind the veil
You don't acknowledge me that's fine
To you my love grows stale.

- Trish 2011

My Life

Running, listening, laughing, loving
I soar but with the wings of wax
Can I the sun resist and last?
My love poured out on shaky sands
My thoughts a mix of blurs and sound
I want but then
I need but why
You the fruit that fills my eye
To feel the warmth of your sweet hand.

- Trish 2011

Mornings

Slowly at first it climbs

creeping uninvited guest

peaking nervously behind the shade

gaining courage steps across the floor

rumples of the night left idly sitting

one tiny tendril slips upon the bed

the ground now giving way

over the bumps and twists of flesh

to open upon my face with warmth

it is morning and I smile to greet the day. :)

- Trish 2011

Am I

Am I the one that bends to help, and hastens just to care,
Or the one that walks on by with little time to spare?
Am I the one that dries the tears, that soothes the shaking fears,
Or do I cower in corners deeply frightened to despair?
Am I the one that stands with shoulders tall, counted in the fight,
Or the one the runs and hides from battles torrid plight?
Am I the one that children ask and mothers tend to hear,
Or am I the noise that chatters on when loved ones shed a tear?
Am I the voice for those without, that suffer needlessly,
Or am I the one to turns my head pretending not to see?
Am I the one that cracks the whip of anger and discontent,
Or the one with pleasant smile that quietly consents?
Am I the one that offers cheer and help to broken hearts,
Or the one that smugly turns my nose at foulness of the scent?
Am I the one to wear a crown of thorns as blood runs to the ground,
Or the one that sits with scratching pen recording it all down?
Am I so crass that I can smile while martyrs die in vain,
Or one that hastens now to spread the word of pain?


- Trish 2011

An open letter to my Dad

Would you even know me or I you? Would I find a tape of you someday and hear your voice speaking to me? You never wanted me but I have always wanted you. What have I done in my life to have you walk away and never know me?

If I could change, could go back, could never exist would it make one minute of your life different?

I may never know a thing about you but that does not change who I am and how much I really want to know you.

But it is okay, I have learned how to cope with being the person that people do not acknowledge. The one the proper people are ashamed of and so I think maybe, just maybe I am strong enough to know that you are too ashamed of me to tell the world you are my father.

I forgive you Dad but I do not know if I could ever look you in the eyes.

Your daughter,

Trish 

Talk

Can we just talk or should I go

Do you just hate me; was it all a lie

Can I know that truth or will you just run and hide

The vale of your smile has slowly faded in my mind

Your touch just a memory; a mist of emotion

Can I hide from the world till the pain goes away

Can we just talk or has the time for talking gone by.

-Trish 2011

The Departing

It only hurts a little while

That pain so present but fading fast

It pours upon the floor in waves

but wrapped the cold engulfs me now

I am the eagle soaring high

to lift my wings and turn to fly

it's time I depart this place

for rest, no pain I know awaits.

-Trish 2011 

Moving On

And now confirmed suspicions be

the pain is great but meant for me

I walk upon the trembling sand

and know that cracks and craves doth steal

the warmth of love, the smile, and touching hand

no longer mine I turn to stand

and face the wind, walk further on

to distant lands where I am found. 

- Trish 2011

Why Me?

Why do I let you in my heart?

Why do I care so much?

Why is it that you trample, the only love I’ve got?

Why can you make me laugh out loud?

Why is it that you shine?

Why have I fall’n so deeply, for the one I think divine? 

- Trish 2011

My Confession

If I told you that you are beautiful, would you believe the depths of my honesty?

If I screamed to the world that you are amazing, 
would I just be another crashing cymbal in the music of your life? 

If I said how much you mean to me, would you understand my pain?

If I told you how lonely I am without you, would that change a minute of your day?

If I confess I've fallen in love with you, would you quiet my trembling heart?

If I asked you into my life, would you turn walk away?

- Trish 2011

The Morning Dew

You are the precious flower
Clothed in the morning dew
You're bathed in radiant colors
Your fragile pedals show
I bask in joy and wonder
On a gift that God bestowed.
I dare not touch your beauty
I shan't chance to mar it's glow
For in my selfish grabbing
I might per chance destroy
And loose the love I know
And with it my heart would go.


Trish 2011

I Wish

     I wish that I                        could somehow 

  tell you all the things that matter most to me 

   and yet you somehow stay aloof so difficult 

    to shatter the barrier that stands so strong

         around your tender  heart so forcing

             me to outer places where I should

               never be the one  you whisper

                  honestly your thoughts of

                           love so true yet 

                              still I wish.

                                   <3

Love and Pain

Why is it I should cause such pain, 

to others whom I love but bruise?

and why should others feel my strain,

of outcast life I somber choose?

If I the one their trials cause,

and bring the clouds and horrid rain,

then I should leave before I loose

my most loved friends and go insane.

- Trish 2011

Poor MySpacey

I got an email from MySpace.
It asked "Where I have been?"
"I've been so lonely I'm loosing pace,"
it said without a grin.
I chanced a thought to take a look,
And browse once more upon my nook.
But with a silly face I took,
and replied to it, "I'M ON FACEBOOK!!!"


- Trish 2011

My pain

I praised you as my kindred heart

And loved you as my own

I lavished care upon your woes

And never left you ‘lone

But to your heart you always looked

And kept it selfishly

You never let me in that place

Twas cold and terse to me

Did you ‘ere call me friend

Or know me as your kin

My heart the road most trampled on

Be trod upon within

I am the one that cares for you

And it shall be my sin

I’ll never learn to guard my heart

But give it once again.

- Trish 2011